*Cause I've Been In Love Before, And I Found That Love Was More Than Just Holding Hands*

Blogging is not my thing. I've given up on any hope that my life will be recorded in writing...I think it's realistic, I mean obviously it's not worked in the past...Why should it now...I rather feel blogging is more an activity for an outburst of emotion...Kind of like songs in musicals...That makes much more sense...Blog posts are the songs of Steff's life...I like the sounds of that...Anyways on to this scene's number...

You causing yourself boy trouble should go away when you find boyfriend...From then on in all other boys should not matter and the only boy trouble that should insue is that caused by said boyfriend...After all that's still a fair share of trouble...But no. Not only do you have the extra helping of boy trouble that the boyfriend creates but occasionally you come across other boy troubles that make all past boy troubles seem like specks of dust...That's just not fair...Extra quantity of boy trouble + Extra quality of boy trouble should not = girl in relationship! But apparently it does...Now I've been dating Darren for almost 2 years so that is a fairly good run of no outside boy trouble...At least from my standpoint...2 years is a long time for anything or nothing to happen...But boy did the new boy trouble shoot me in the face...I mean out of all the things to happen I can't really say I ever expected this...But then again I didn't expect that I liked Darren...Or Drew...Or Glenn for that matter...My life is like the Spanish Inquisition...NOBODY EXPECTS THE SPANISH INQUISITION!...But Fuck it's nasty...I just don't know what to do...I can't talk to Darren as we've had this potential coversation before and I think that it would just kill him/us which I don't think I want to happen...But on the other hand I can't really not do anything about it...I think, as per normal, I'll have to go with secret answer C...It really hasn't set me stray yet but there's a first time for everything...The problem with Secret Answer C is that there are two possible outcomes with it...Everything could be as I suspect and then everything will/should be fine...Which is good...But on the other hand it could be everything I can't/don't expect...And then I don't know what I'll do...I don't know what he'll do or what Darren will do...Not to mention everyone else...I feel like on the edge of something very great...Or something that has the possibility to be great...But the chance of greatness is so small that you can't hope for it...But in that large probability of failure there can still be success...But in this case I'm not sure if I want success...If things don't turn out the way I expect them to I'll have to think more...And thinking sucks enough right now as it is...And then choose...Which I can't imagine doing...Or have I already done so? Is the reason I'm considering this because I've made my choice...I feel like I'm a person with no hands who wants to go outside but I can't open the door so I've decided to sit inside and read a book...But if someone were to open the door I'd close my book and walk outside into the sun...But at the same time I almost don't want to leave my book as I'm in the middle of the story and I want to see how it ends...If life weren't about morals I would certainly try to bring my book outside and enjoy both but alas I think that would be a bad choice...Perhaps cheating isn't the huge sin I once thought it to be...Maybe not in all cases...The thing is that I don't know what I want...I want this to be resolved but I don't know what I want the outcome to be...Like I'm conducting an experiment without a hypothosis...I'm just doing it to get it done and find something out...What I do with the information will be based upon the information I receive instead of visa-versa...Perhaps that makes me a mad scientist...Half of me want what I expect because it's simple...The other half of me wants the unexpected because I...Well because I want it badly...I Imagine everything...Not perfect of course but exciting and frustrating and passionate and irritating all at the same time...I imagine colors and feelings and touches that don't exist but I want them to...But would they be true if I left "just happy"...But then pops another problem...What if everything comes out as expected but it happens again, sometime later, with someone else...Will I be equally tempted then...Will this continue? Is "just happy" enough? That's the real question...Am I settling...And if I am, Can I Deal With That?...Cause I don't think I can...I push everything to the limit...I'm ambitious...I want to feel life through my veins and passion in my heart...I want to know that I never failed to take a chance that could have given me my dreams because I was scared or I didn't know what would happen...I need to...That's my life...That's how I choose to live...I don't cower or falter because I can't, I need to know...If it hurts, that's fine. It's meant to after all...Otherwise I'll keep going...I'll lament over losses and cry over past tears and that's what I want to do...I'll never give back love anyone's given me or try to take it from those I gave it freely to...What I give is yours to keep...Secrets, love and memories...Or preferably all three...But I need to know that I did everything I could do make my life into my dreams...Because I don't live to dream, I dream to live.

*I Take Another Fall, Take A Hit, Take A Fall For You*

So to preface my return to Blogger-dom, I feel the need to express myself more. As I don't keep a journal well I'm hoping that a blog might suffice...I mean Megs still keeps hers...Not that my previous attempts have gone well but w/e...Call it a late New Years Resolution...Anyways it might have been destined for me to think of blogs on the night where I feel my past and present smashed together...Which brings me to the blog...

So hanging out with Darren...Rock on..Ramsey's Kitchen Nightmares...Couch...Everything's rockin...Leah calls and wants us to go over to her party thing going down....Not so rock on...Don't get me wrong I think all the people there are on the up and up...But here's my issue...I hate when people change plans with me...Darren and I had planed to hang out and chill...If he wanted to hang out with his friends and go party then he should have done that instead of saying he'd hang out with me...Plus as much as I think everyone there is great I'm really an outcast...There are only so many things you can say to a person that you haven't seen in a year or so and may have either not talked to a lot or made out with...I felt like I was back in grade 12 but not in a good way...I don't fit in with anyone there...I'm more there because Darren fits in...I'm just the bonus that comes when your purchase a package...The free printer with computer...So Darren pulls out the "well we're hanging out all day tomorrow and tonight's really the only night I can hang out with my friends" card but he says that he won't go if I don't want to...Straight up I don't want to...So I tell him so...Then he gets upset...Well shit if I look like the bitch for being honest...No I don't want to say goodbye to Gill, Yes she's going back to London and Huzzah for her...I didn't really miss her when she was gone so I wont really miss her again now will I?...No I don't want to hang out with teenagers who are drunk out of their pants and wanting some...And no I definetly don't want to hang out with Paul and Paige and your parents thank you very much...But because I don't want to be the bitch because I'm sure that will just result in much sulking I agree to go...Worst idea ever...Get there and immediately feel quite akward...Get over it when I find Mel...Yay for Mel and her social abilities...Mirgrate around for a while as people abandon me as conversation runs out...I mean really I don't have a lot to say to many of the people there and conversation starters were not abound tonight...Spencer congratuated me on how well I'm doing though...Despite not talking with him in a very long time I still really respect him...That meant a lot to me...Anyways thats out of line with my rant...I travel downstairs and have some fairly enjoyable conversations with Mel and Glenn of all people...Then around 10:00 things started going downhill...Mel left so I lost my convo partner...Darren's had a few drinks...I now have no one to tag along with except Darren or I'm left to my unsatisfactory mingling skills...So I try a little of both...I appreciate Maarty...Sky is drunk...I'd rather avoid many people who I went to school with or know vaguely who are drunk or high...So by now it's pretty obvious I'm not enjoying myself...Darren had said if I wasnt having a good time we'd leave..fat chance...He's had a few drinks and unfathomably having an awesome time...I just don't fit in with these people so I don't think that it was feesable to expect to have a good time I just didn't think it would end up this bad...Dan plays guitar for a while which was okay enough to pass some time but then Drew arrived which brings the number of people very entwined in my relationship past and present to 5/10 people and 5/6 from my theatre days...That's too high of a ratio to soothe akwardness and as I'm now just sitting on Darren's lap trying to think of someway to make this a better situation for his sake I decide that there isn't anything and that I wish I could leave...I've made it quite clear to Darren that I am no longer enjoying myself...The deal was that if I didn't want to be there anymore we'd leave...apparently there must have been some kind of loop hole that I missed that changed I to we because Darren was having a great time he didn't want to leave..."I'm sorry I'm being such a jerk about this but I'm having a lot of fun"...well huzzah for you then...where does that leave me...so I sit trying to wish us away and back to his house like planned and then unplanned I realize something...Fuck if I have to stay here...I drove him...I can fucking leave whenever I want to...So I decide to...Does he care? Nope!...No sorry you didn't have a good time...No, Oh! I'll come with you!...No are you sure I'd really like you to stay!...Nope just a "Yeah it's getting late...I'll show you to the door...Call me tomorrow? Love you."...I was/am so fuming mad...About all of it...I feel like chopped liver...I feel like admitting he was being a jerk about it does not make it better but worse...He made me the bad guy all night long, first for not wanting to go when we had planned to hang out and he had said if I dont want to go then we wouldn't, second for not having a good time when I didn't want to go in the first place and third for wanting to leave...and I feel like he didn't care by the end of it...Fuming mad...I haven't been this mad in quite a while..Since high school...Grade 11 maybe...I mean it's resorted me to blogging...I just hope that I'm this mad tomorrow still cause god I want to tear a strip off him and let him know...After all we are spending the day together...That's why we went to the party...It was only fair...

Swatch Forever

Because I Can Can Can

PART 1
1. What curse word do you use the most? I Like Saying Son Of A Bitch...Its Fun
2. Do you own an iPod? Mhm
3. Who on your Myspace "Top 8" do you talk to the most? Who Uses Myspace
4. What time is your alarm clock set for right now? 9:15 am
5. How many suitcases do you own? 4
6. Do you wear flip flops outside when it's cold out? EEEE Cold Feet
7. Are you having a good day? Yep
8. What was the last movie you watched? Pirates Of The Caribbean Dead Man's Chest
9. Do any of your friends have children? Nope
10. Who is your bestfriend? Martha, Kmart Or Lauren...Tho I Never Talk To Lauren...:(
11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster? Nope
12. What cd is currently in your cd player? Umm...I Have Jem, OC Mix 1 And A Mixed CD But I Never Use My CD Player...
13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? Regular!
14. Has anyone told you a secret this week? Ummm...I Dont Think So.
15. When was the last time someone hit on you? Im Very Bad At This Telling When People Are Hitting On Me...I Suppose Everyone Last Night...Not That I Didnt Ask For It
16. Can you whistle? Damn Right
17. Who was the last person to text you? Im Pretty Sure Im Too Dumb To Work Text Messaging
18. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? Yes...Whoever Doesnt Is Crazy
19. Did you watch cartoons as a child? Hells Yes...Jem And The Holograms Still Kicks Ass
20. How many siblings do you have? None
21. Are you shy around the opposite sex? Im Shy Around People I Dont Know...So Sometimes?
22. What movie do you know every line to? Clue, Toy Story And Probably Harry Potter
23. What is the 4th text message on your CELL PHONE? I Dont Have Them
24. What is your favorite salad dressing? Ranch
25. Do you read for fun? Yes
26. Do you do your own dishes? Sadly No
27. Have you ever cried in public? Yep
28. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? Both...But I Only Use My Laptop
29. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? Im Kinda Thinking I Might Want A Tattoo...
30. What is the weather like? Sunny
31. Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos? If I Liked Them It Wouldnt Be A Problem
32. Do you have an online journal? Not Really...I Dont Use My Blog Enough...And When I Do Its To Do Surveys To Cure Boredom
33. When was the last time you slept on the floor? I Cant Remember
34. How many hours of sleep do you need to function? 4 1/2-6
35. Do you eat breakfast daily? Hell No
36. Are your days full and fast-paced? Sometimes
37. Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class? Yes!
38. Do you pay attention to calories on the back of package? Nope
39. When was the last time you drove in a car for over 2 hours? Last Time I Went To Victoria
40. Are you picky about spelling and grammar? Kinda
41. Have you ever been to Six Flags? No
42. Do you often dream when you sleep? NO! It Makes Me Sad...But I Get Deja Vu
43. Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex? Id Say Opposite But I Dont Have Many Guy Friends
44. Do you like mustard? Yes
45. Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back? Side
46. Last person who called you? Martha? No! It Was Darren's Dad! HAHAHAHA!

PART 2:
1) Single, taken or crushin? Single
2) Are you happy with where you are? Yep
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? Yes...Its Not Helpful At All
4) Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where you find cheating acceptable? No
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? Id Like To Say No But It Would Depend
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person? Not In A "Hey When We Get Married Kinda Way" But In Other Ways Yes
Do you want children? Yes
9) How many? 2-3
10) Would you consider adoption? Yes
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be? I Dunno...I Think It Would Really Depend On The Person...But I Liked The Randomly Kissing Them Idea.
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get ? No Cause I Suck At It
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dateing? I Dont Understand The Game
14) Do you believe love at first sight existsts? Nope
15) Are you romantic? Hells Yes
16) Do you believe you can change someone? I Think I Can Influence Someone But They Have To Want To Change For It To Happen
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object, where would it be? I Have No Idea! It Would Totally Depend On The Person...
18) Do you easily give in when you are fighting? No But I Dont Fight Unless I See A Point
20) Do you have feelings for someone right now? Yes...Stupid Stupid Stef
21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you didn't take advantage of your opportunity? I Think Sorta...
22.) Have you ever broken a heart? Yes
23.)What will happen if you come home and find another person in bed with your significant other? Id Probably Wouldnt Say Anything And Just Leave And Speak Minimally With Them...I Dont Think Id Blow Up...Id Do The Opposite...Its Quiet Stef..You Know Somethings Wrong When Stef Goes Quiet
24.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? Im Not Sure I Understand...Like Duel For Their Love Or Someone Thinks They're Bad For Me? Both Are No...No One Duels Anymore And Everyone's Entitled To An Opinion.
25.) What would you say your boyfriend/girlfriend does better now than your last ex and what did your last ex do better than boyfriend/girlfriend now? SINGLE!

PART 3:
10 FACTS
1. Hometown: Victoria
2. Height: 5'5
3. Hair color: Blonde
4. Hair length: Past Shoulder Length
5. Hair style: Striaght
6. Eye color: Bluey Grey
7. Shoe size: 8
8. Mood: Happy
9. Sexuality: Straight
10. Cell phone: Bell

10 LOVELIFE
1. Have you ever been in love: Mhm
2. Do you believe in love?: YES!
3. Why did your last relationship fail?: I Cant Really Say And That Drives Me Nuts
4. Have you ever been heartbroken?: Yep
5. Have you ever broken someones heart?: Yes
6. Have you ever fallen for your best friend: Contrary To Popular Belief Martha And I Are Not In Fact Lovers
7. Are you planning on getting married?: Yes
8. Are you afraid of commitment?: No
9. Would you ever get married to someone of the same sex?: Nope
10. Would you ever have sex with someone of the same sex? Nope

10 OTHER
1. Love or lust?: Love With Lust
3. Night or day?: Night
4. Hook-ups or relationship?: Relationships
5. Tv or internet?: Internet
6. Pepsi or coke?: Coke
7. Wild night out or romantic night in?: Romantic Night In
8. Saturday or Sunday?: Sunday
9. Colored or black and white picture?: Black And White
10. Phone or in person?: In Person

*I've Been The Needle And The Thread...*

If People Say Things They Should Mean It...For Example When You Give Your Word It Should Be The Truth...Or When You Make Plans You Should Keep Them...Or At Least Let People Know That They Aren't Going To Happen...I Think Thats General Curtesy...I Mean People Plan Their Day Around Plans...If Your Plan Isnt Followed You End Up Wasting A Persons Day...How Rude Is That? If You Say You'll Call...You Should...If You Say You Can't...You Can't...If You Say You'll Be There...You Should Be...

This Is Why People's Words Count For Nothing Today

*If You're Listenin' Whoa!...Sing It Back! Whoa!...*

So Being The Cool Person I Am I Stole This From Marthas Blog...Too Bad If You Dont Like It

Open your choice of music player [iTunes, Limewire, Kazaa, ect.] and put it on shuffle.
Press play.
For every question type the song thats on.
And when you go to a new question press the next button.
No cheating.
Ready?
GO!


Opening Credit:
Specialist - Interpol

Waking Up:
American Pie - Madonna

Average Day:
Calling All Angels - Train

First Date:
When It Started - The Strokes

Falling In Love:
You Were Meant For Me - Jewel

Fight Scene:
The Burn - Matchbox 20

Breaking Up:
Human Nature - Madonna

Getting Back Together:
He's A Pirate - Pirates Of The Caribbean Soundtrack (If Hes A Pirate I Wouldnt Have Left Him In The First Place...)

Secret Love:
Put Me Down - The Cranberries

Life's Okay:
Cold Hard Bitch - Jet

Mental Breakdown:
So Real - Jeff Buckley

Driving:
Cannonball - Damien Rice

Learning A Lesson:
Believe Me Natalie - The Killers

Deep Thought:
Secret - Maroon 5

Flashback:
All My Life - K-Ci & Jojo

Partying:
Mischief Managed! - Harry Potter and the Prisoner Of Azkaban Soundtrack

Happy Dance:
Last Time Lover - The Spice Girls

Regretting:
Hands - Jewel

Long Night Alone:
The World Has Turned And Left Me Here - Weezer

Death Scene:
I'm Looking Forward To Joining You, Finally - Nine Inch Nails

Okay Ive Also Just Remembered Another Fun Game...Im Going To Keep My iTunes On Random And Put The First Lyrics For The Next 15 Songs Here...Faithful Readers, Your Job Is To Guess What They Are! Yay Games!

1) "Well I Couldn't Tell You, Why She Felt That Way..."

2) "So Much For The City, Tell Me That You'll Dance To The End..."

3) "Hey Little Sister, I Heard You Went To Mister So-So..."

4) "I'm The Kind Of Brother, Who Been Doin' It My Way..."

5) "Give Me All Your Tears, Let Me Turn Them To Pearls..."

6) "Can't Stand Quick Fixes, Later Make No Sense..."

7) "Blackbird Singin' In The Dead Of Night, Take These Broken Wings And Learn To Fly"

8) "I See The Picture Clearer Now, The Fog Has Lifted..."

9) "I'm Sittin' At The Wheel, I've Got A Green Light..."

10) "See The Devil On The Doorstep Now, My Oh My..."

11) "The Minute You Walked In The Joint..."

12) "I Could Tell, From The Minute I Woke Up..."

13) "So Open Up Your Morning Light And Say A Little Prayer For Right..."

14) "My Reflection, In The Mirror, Is No Connection, To Myself..."

15) "If You Wear Red Tonight, Remember What I Said Tonight..."

Now That I Am Suffciently Bored Ive Decided Not To Regular Post And You Have To Deal With It...Sorry...(Well Not Really)

KISSES!

---BEWARE: Rant Area...Proverbial Earmuffs Advised---

You Have Been Warned!

WHY ARE PEOPLE SUCH IDIOTS?!?!?!

If Someone Could Tell Me I Would Gladly Give Them Something Of Worth That I Own...Dont Ask What Cause Thats Not The Point At All...

Relationships Are Difficult...We Dont Need Dumb People Out There Infecting The Difficulty With Stupidity!

Rule Of Life: Going Out With Someone Should Be More Serious Than Everyone Takes It.

Im Not Going Into What I Think About Realtionships Because I Think I Have A Much Too Adult Version (Not X Rated But Mature) Of What A Realtionship Means...Anyways...

Also When You Ask People What They Think And Why They Think It You Shouldnt Be Able To Get Offended Or Angry...Not That I Really Mind But Others Might...(Im Very Humanitairan...Or At Least A Bad Spelling Humanist)...People Can Think What They Want For Whatever Reason They Want...Its Life Kids...Its Not A Happy Place...

Welcome To The Tragic Kingdom

Swatch

*Some Say, We're Never Meant To Grow Up, I'm Sure They Never Knew Enough

So Ive Decided To Do More Of The Things I Want To Do...

I Dont Mean In The Normal Sense...Like The Fact That I Want To Go Mini-Golfing Or Disco Bowling Or Some Such...That Just Makes Normal Stef Sense.

I Mean In The Abnormal Sense...In The Fact That I Want To Do A Lot Of Things Sometimes But The Voice Inside My Head Either Says "This Might Be A Bad Idea" Or It Says "Maybe You Shouldn't Do That"...

If I Want To Do It I Should Just Ignore My Head Voice...It's My Internal Slytherin...And Since I Follow It So Often I Am Generally A Slytherin...And Really Deep Down I Am...But There Are A Lot Of Times I Wish I Was A Gyrffindor...Therefore I Have Decided To Shut Off My Inner Slytherin For Some Things And Take The Gryffindor Road...I'm Sick Of Hiding From Death Eater Parents And God Damn Voldemort...Maybe I'm Just A Defective Slytherin...THATS BRILLIANT! I Am Now Offically A Defective Slytherin...Or At Least I Hope To Be...That's My New Goal...Yay Goal Setting...I Figure Thats Got To Be A Step In The Right Direction...Goals Are Definetly Non-Slytherin.

Swatch

YAY Yes Or No With No Explainations!

1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? Yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Driven a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? Yes
8. Stole money from a friend? No
9. Gotten in the car with people you didnt know? No
10. Been in a fist fight? No
11. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone of the same sex? No
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept (not had sex) in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture (npt made out)? Yes
23. Slept in until 3? Yes
24. Miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? Yes
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? No
32. Felt an earthquake? Yes
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? Cant Remember So We'll Say No
37. Been in a car accident that you didnt cause? No
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes
39. Been the person doing the crime? Yes
40. Pole danced? No
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yes
43. Felt so sick you thought you might die? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? No
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes
50. Kissed in the rain? No
51. Sang in the shower? Yes
52. Had sex in a park? No
53. Had a dream where you were married? No
54. Glued your hand to something? No
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? Yes
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
64. Broken a bone? Yes
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laughed so hard you cried? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? No
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69: Forgotten someones name? Yes
70. Slept naked? Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? No
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Been cheated on? No?
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? Yes
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? No
84. Felt like running away? Yes
85. Ran away? No
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
89. Made a parent cry? No?
90. Cried about someone? Yes
91. Fooled around with more than one person in a 24 hour period? No
92. Dated someone you didn't even like? No
93. Had/Have a dog? Yes
95. Own an instrument? Yes
96. Been in band? No
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
98. Broken a CD? Yes
99. Shot a gun? No
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? Yes

So Im Bad At This...W/E

Ok See How I Dont Post In Forever...

This Is Why Im Not Allowed Fish...Or Plants

Anyways Because I Dont Feel Like Actually Blogging This Was More Fun

Open iTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following.

Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.

How many songs? 3175 (Please Note That I Stopped Ripping Music To Windows Since I Figured Out My iPod...iTunes has 3549)

Sort by artist

First artist: 3 Doors Down
Last artist: Yve .N. Adam

Sort by song title

First Song: #1 Zero - Audioslave
Last Song: The Zone Clap - Nuclear Donkey

Sort by time

Shortest Song: [untitled] - John Mayer : 0 Seconds (Dont Ask Me How You Can Have A Track That's 0 Seconds...Thats Just What It Says...)
Longest Song: The Wonderful Future - Our Lady Peace : 20:00

Sort by album

First Album: !The Uprising Sound Revolution Volume 2
Last Album: Zippo Hot Tour: Summer 2004

How many songs come up when you search for "sex" - 13
How many songs come up when you search for "death"? - 22
How many songs come up when you search for "love"? - 153

This Was An Awesome Survey...But Do You Realize How Long It Takes For My Computer To Alphabetize 3000 Someodd Songs...Thats Some Serious Processing

*Black Flowers Blossom, Fearless On My Breath, Teardrops On My Fire*

Well Shit...

Im Starting To See Why People Hated The Spanish Inquisition So Much...Surprises Are Not Fun...

However In All Of This I've Discovered Something...I Have Different Ways Of Crying...I've Cried Cause Of Physical Pain And Thats Just Crying...Then Theres The Im Sorry Tears Which Hurt Deep In Your Lungs...Then Theres The Crying Where You Feel You Should Be Crying But Your Not Sure Why That Can Go Two Ways Either Silent Tears Or Big Sobs...Then Theres The Freak Out Tears Which Are Accompanied By The Throwing Of Objects Or The Undeniable Urge To Scream Or Rip Something Which All In All Exhausts You...And Tonight We Add Possibly The Most Painful...The Broken Heart Tears...They Make The Back Of My Throat Hurt...And I Feel I Cant Cry But I Cant Stop Either...They Hurt...I Feel Like Im Gagging...And Theres A Need To Wail...The Need To Curl Up And Just Keep To Myself But At The Same Time The Need To Go And Show People Whats Happening...I Hate These Tears Most Of All...

Ironically...Or Possibly Not Ironically But Im Too Chicken To Ask Now...The Song Of The Day Was Teardrop...Im Not Sure What To Think...Im Not Sure Im Thinking...

It Hurts

*Lets Get Together, Yeah Yeah Yeah, We're Gonna Have A Real Good Time*

And So We Have A Co-Written Stef And Martha Blog...Today Has Been Hilarious...We're Not Quite Sure Why...But It Has...Lets Go Over The Memorable Quotes Of The Day...

On Movies Having Gay Undertones...
"Like In Aladin. With Jafar And...Oh Wait...That Was A Parrot"-Stef

On Useless Inventions...
"I Was Superman For Halloween When I Was 5 And My Mom Bought Me A Cape And Along The Bottom It Said "Do Not Attempt To Fly" And I Was Hearbroken. I Still Can't Fly"-Graeme

On Not Paying Attention To Notes...
"I Was Listening. I Just Couldn't Hear You!"-Josh
"That's Because You Were In The Box!"-Response

On My New Kit-Kat Klock...
"He Was The Bright Light When People Ate Dirt And Had No Socks. He Was Everything The Joads Stood For. We Should Call Him Joad."-Stef

"You Know He Kinda Reminds Me Of Tilt. I Think It's The Bow-Tie...Execpt Tilt Doesnt Wear A Bow-Tie."
"Now Whenever You Look At The Clock You'll Think Of Tilt. You'll Be Lying There At Night Trying To Go To Sleep And You'll Be Looking At The Clock And All You'll Be Able To Think Is "Drew""
*Bout Of Laughter*
"I Just Got A Picture Of Drew Hanging On A Wall Will His Leg Swinging Back And Forth"
*More Laughter*
"And His Eyes Moving Back And Forth"
*Laughter*
"Can We Just Call Him Drew?"
"No."-Stef And Martha

On Martha And Stef's Goals For Life...
"We Should Go Make A List!"
"A Feel Good List"
*Run Up The Stairs Giggling Maniaclly...Then Collaspe At The Top When Laughter Becomes Too Funny*

On Attacking Stef With A Spray Bottle...
*Sprays Stef In The Face With Water And Laughs*
"I'm Sorry!"
"I'm Going To Ask You This Once...What Did You Think Was Going To Happen If You Pulled It?"
"I Didn't Think About Pulling It...It Just Kind Of Happened!"-Stef And Martha

On Bowser...
*Eating Dinner*
*Stef And Martha Break Out Into Super Mario Music*

On Sharp Objects...
"He Has Sharp Objects...I Dont Want To Be Stabbed"
*Martha Kicks Me Off Chair*
"Or Kicked Onto The Floor!*

On The Limo...
"We Wanted A Helicopter So We Could Land On A Helipad."
"It Doesnt Even Matter That Beban Doesnt Have A Helipad. We'll Just Land On The Field"
"Yeah. We'll Ruin The Field And That Nice Little Garden Thing They Have!"
*Little Laughs*
"We Could Spray Paint A Giant H On The Grass!"

On Treasure Trails...
"We Decided That Glenn Doesn't Have A Treasure Trail...He Has A Treasure Forest."-Talissa

On Bath Bombs...
"OH! CHOCOLATE!...oh...We've Been Over This"-Martha

*We've Got Too Much Time To Kill, Like Piegons On My Windowsill, We Hang Around*

So Martha Demanded That I Post...Which I Dont Understand Because She Hasnt Posted In Just As Long As Me...I Mean Who Died And Made Her Head Vagina Of The World...Certainly Not Margret Thatcher!

Anyways...New Things In Life...New New Person At Work Quit Therefore All My Stupid Freakin Hours Are Back...I Am Falling Apart At The Seams...English Is Crap...I Have A Boy...I Blush A Lot Which Isnt Helpful...I Went To "What The Heart Sees" Last Night Which Was Awesome...I Laughed So Hard About "The Big Pink Book O' Rules"'s Cameo...I Signed Up For Dance Lessons Which Makes Me Happy...I Cant Think Of Much Else Right Now...Im Kinda Sleepy...OH! Grad Fashion Show On Tuesday Is Making Me Happy...Drew's Modelling In It...YAY! Boy In Tux!...I Also Work Too Much This Week Which I Stongly Dislike...Anyways Im Bored Of This...BYE!

*Disappears In A Puff Of Purple Smoke*